Dear Lady F,
Tell me about the dream you are glad did not come true?
In my entire life, I have always dreamt about the same thing. As far as I know, nobody on their death bed had complained that they have had too much of it. But my dream has got certain conditions that have to be met. It’s the special attitude towards the partner for this wonderful act, without which the act isn’t wonderful. I am glad it hardly happened only once or twice, because according to the calculus of probability it has to start happening – and often – sometime in the near future, and it will be a blast!
When you haven’t had too much of a good thing, you can always have more. It reminds me of how envious I am of a person, who still hasn’t seen a good movie, or read a good book, and I am jealous of the pleasure they will experience the first time because it will never happen to me again. I envy myself for the delight I am about to experience and for the good things that forebode it. Everything around me promises good stuff will start happening.
That thing I most crave for is communication – mainly non-verbal communication. As a person with an Airy chart, I am extremely communicative and I do not wish to boast, but… heaven’s on my mind and the door to heaven is…well…
So keep calm and keep calm, because if you don’t keep calm, you look stupid. Seasons keep on changing, day after day, and you are waiting for your spiritual dawn. But then…it’s not like you don’t get any…in fact, even now you are burning with the best blood of the heart, as Shelley put it.